5 more days!

Its O level science practical tmrw, yet I still don't feel the tension yet :/ Why is it that no matter how much I do, it still feels like its not enough but I can't make myself do more. Why is it that O levels is coming SO soon but I'm not nervous/worried even though I'm not fully prepared. Why am I harbouring so much hope when it is highly impossible. Tell me why.

P.S. I'm still hanging there, struggling, finding it hard to let go.