expectations.

Veryveryvery long never update my blog alreadyyy.

So I should start updating, i know.

I've been working so much that I feel that work is taking over my life, like seriously.

But work is getting more awesome as the people there are really nice and easy to talk to :D

Anyway, went for odac chalet a couple of days ago, it was fantastic.

Love the way how odac people can always click after not meeting for a longlong time.

The gift exchange was awesome!

Very long never see the awesomes already, miss them TTM!

Totally look forward to see them soon.

Going overseas next weekend, like pretty exciting :D

Going malaysia to hike and shop, 2 days trip onlyyy but its enough alreadyyy.

2010 is ending soon, hope that next year will be a brand new start.

With new school, new environment, new friends.

Honestly, I'm SUPER worried for my results.

What if I get like 20 points or something like that? That will be so OMG >.<

I'll pray hard, fingers crossed*.

P.S. i really don't know what to expect.

nothing at all.

Have you ever felt so small, so small that you don't even matter?

ELVA蕭亞軒 - 錯的人

SHOPPING!

Went shopping with huisi, xinying, yvette and qiaoyi yesterday.

Walked around bugis street, most of us didn't have the mood to shop.

In the end we sat down at J.CO.

Talked, ate donuts, awesome only :D

Very long never talk to them already.

Went orchard in the evening, started to really shop.

Bought 2 tops and belts.

We took a long time to decide where to eat at, we are picky people.

Almost walked the entire ion and still can't find a suitable place.

Ate at wheelock place in the end.

We chit-chat all the way till 10pm, then went home.

P.S. i really don't know.

The Wanted - Lose My Mind

cruise

nice view, i know.

in penang, the laksa there is really nice.

the BIG ship.

our cabin.

in thailand.

group photo.

thailand have nice beaches.

headlands and bays, haha.

at the cashew nut factory in thailand

huge checkers

the kids swimming pool

table tennis

jenga is pretty exciting

mini golf

boom

Has been busy with work this week.

Nothing interesting except for prom and stay over at isabel's house

Went isabel's house in the morning on wed.

Met the girls, we chit-chat, paint our nails, make our hair, dress-up :D

Went for prom at orchard hotel.

At first, we were supposed to travel there in the big cab we booked but the driver got into an accident :/

In the end have to ask francine's dad to pick us up with his 7-seater car.

Prom was not bad, though not as exciting as I thought it would be.

Took many pictures, the food was okay, not very nice.

Luckily, none of us fell down because of the heels.

After prom, we went back to isabel's house in the big cab we booked.

By the time we all bathe, its 2am already.

Watched a bit of TV, ate cereal and we all slept.

Woke up in the morning, watched TV, harpers island is pretty nice.

Went macs for breakfast, after that they decided to have a race back to isabel's house, it was so funny to see them run like mad :D

Played cards and we just slacked.

Going on cruise later on, will be back on wed.

Hope that I will enjoy myself.

Goodbye.

P.S. Should I let go?

Roar.

I've got this ball at my throat that hurts when I touch it :(

What if its a tumour/anything bad? O.O

I should really drink more water.

tell me.

this week was quite a busy and tiring one.

Went for 205'08 chalet on 18-19 nov.

Spent most of the time playing card games like monopoly(card version), pick/pig, ban luck, stress, jack slap.

Jack slap was the best man, damn exciting! I like :D

Finally knew how to play the monopoly(card version) during the chalet, quite addictive.

Went bowling and arcade.

Watched red, the movie is not bad, quite funny. I thought it is a thriller, in the end its a comedy.

Didn't sleep the entire night, what an accomplishment. :D

Only slept for 2 hours on friday's afternoon, totally dying at night.

No choice cause have to go collect my uniform.

Went shopping with my mum on friday night, don't know how I did it.

Bought a pair of heels for prom :)

Yesterday was a special day :D

The awesomes crashed my house in the morning, totally not surprised.

I wanted to sleep more cause i was so tired from the chalet.

They woke me up ):

Ate breakfast, ate cake, bathe, took pictures, played card games for a while and went compass point.

Went walking around, bought lunch and went francine's house.

Played wii and spent the rest of the time chit-chatting.

I love the chit-chats! :D

I'm really grateful for their efforts, appreciated much. THANKS! Love you guys! <3

Went home and went out for dinner with my family.

Went shopping today,

Didn't buy anything, wasn't in the mood to shop. Felt very tired.

I went somerset with francine, jiayi, isabel and valerie.

Ate at T.G.I.F for lunch, the food quite nice, just a bit ex.

I'm going to start work tmrw, doing night shift.

Quite excited for it, hope that it'll be interesting

P.S. I think i think too much but I really hope that...

shopping!

Went shopping with valerie, jiayi and isabel today.

Went raffles city, shaw house and wisma.

Only bought a top, I thought I would buy more things.

Went for job interview at 313@somerset, got a part-time job, starting work next week :D

I shall try to get my prom stuff tmrw, or else no time already!

I need to exercise, growing fatter ):

205'08 chalet on 18-19 nov, looking forward :D

P.S. I thought...

the weekend.

Went plaza sing with huisi, weepin, chinyue, jonathan ong and ruihao yesterday.

Ate at thai express, the food is not bad just that its not suitable for people who can't take spicy food.

Watched megamind, its pretty funny and quite nice, though its just some typical superhero movie.

Went arcade afterwards, stayed there for a while.

Decided to go somerset as we have nothing else to do.

Shopped and bought 2 tops.

Settled down at coffee bean and we just talked for a hour or so, was quite surprise that they sell frozen yoghurt and it taste good :D

Went to meet my family for dinner afterwards.

Went east coast park with qiaoyi, francine, jiayi, valerie and isabel today.

Wanted to rollerblade but it was raining ):

So we stoned at macs for a while.

Wanted to play pool but the person say have to be 18 and above, stupid lor, I was able to play the last time I went, tsk.

Decided to go arcade instead.

Played DDR, sprained my foot. As in not the ankle there, somewhere near my toe and its slightly swollen. Okay, maybe more than slightly ):

We went plaza sing, AGAIN.

Watched unstoppable, its about a train that couldn't stop.

Had motion sickness after the movie, it felt like I just got off the train.

Ate at ajisen ramen, the noodles was pretty nice, just that I didn't have the appetite.

Walked around and went home.

P.S. I'm hoping for the best.

David Archuleta - Something 'Bout Love

Every night it’s all the same
You’re frozen by the phone
You wait, something’s changed
You blame yourself every day
You’d do it again
Every night

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

When you were young
Scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time
And live and let live

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Don’t fight
Don’t hide
Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)
Let em’ shine tonight
Let em’ shine tonight

Hang on
Hang in
For the ride of your life
It’s gonna be alright
Hold on tight

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees (to your knees)
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Whoa oh oh oh..
Set’s you free
There’s something bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain

CHINESEEE

明天是O水准华文考试，说真的我现在非常没有信心因为我已经很久没有读华文了。我很害怕我不能考好，有一点担心我不会写作文 :/ 我现在要组织一个完整的句子都很困难，需要很长的一段时间。真希望它能快点结束，就可以玩了:D 船到桥头自然直，但愿如此。

用华文来写我的博客感觉怪怪的，可是为了我的华文成绩，我得与华文做好朋友。所谓，熟能生巧 :D

Time for miracles

我想拥有但我不想要求。

我想拥有但我害怕失去。

I know I wouldn't.

When you are at the edge of a cliff, will you struggle to hold on no matter how hurt you are, waiting for someone to save you or will you overcome your fear and jump down to the calm blue water?

english

English papers are over! :D

Speech came out, as expected.

I did narrative even though I don't do it usually, hope that it will be alright x:

Comprehension was easy but it isn't really something to be happy about since everyone will do as well.

I was having headache during paper 1, unlucky to the max ):

David Archuleta - Elevator

its tomorrow.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL! :D

5 more days!

Its O level science practical tmrw, yet I still don't feel the tension yet :/ Why is it that no matter how much I do, it still feels like its not enough but I can't make myself do more. Why is it that O levels is coming SO soon but I'm not nervous/worried even though I'm not fully prepared. Why am I harbouring so much hope when it is highly impossible. Tell me why.

P.S. I'm still hanging there, struggling, finding it hard to let go.

9 more days!

My daily routine: wake up, bathe, eat breakfast, study, lunch, study, bathe, dinner, study, sleep. Okay, maybe a little slacking, a teeny bit of tv, a weeny bit of using the computer :/ I'm so looking forward to the days when I can just waste my time idling, staring into space.

P.S. Right, i'm not worth it, i don't worth anything.

in, out.

last day of school!

Today is 101010! Like damn cool only :D

天下无不散之筵席

Today is the last day of school! I still cannot believe that it is really the last day of my entire secondary school life and I've graduated(somehow). I will miss the school to bits. Played captain's ball with 406 after school, it was damn fun! Though the guys are VERY violent :/ It feels good to sweat it all out after studying for the entire week. Can't wait for O levels to be over!

P.S. 2 weeks.

李玖哲 - 別說

Daughtry - September

How the time passed away, all the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made
One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone, yeah

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how
We would end up here the way we are
Yeah, we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

i'm okayyy.

P.S. time heals uh.

its raining, its pouring.

Went to school early in the morning for geog. It was rather productive as it's in a small group. I feel like slacking now, roar. I shall force myself to study later ): Just watched the graduation album miss oh and miss lee gave us, the videos are very touching. A huge thank you to them for spending time to make this for us. I feel so scared suddenly. Scared that I will lose my beloved friends after I graduate. I know I will miss xms and odac a lot but I'll miss my friends even more. I'm sure that we will still keep in contact but I'm even more sure that things won't be the same any more. Even the slightest change is still a change. With new friends and new school, people change. I should treasure what I have now and stop complaining right?

P.S. it's coming after me again.

E's for EMOTIONAL.

Sometimes, I just hope that things can be different, though I know that it is unlikely. Sometimes, I just hope that I don't care, but too bad I do and I just couldn't bear it. Sometimes, I wish that I can wake up as if nothing had happened. Sometimes, I just hope that I can lose my memory and my life can start afresh. Sometimes, I just want to appear happy even though I'm hurting deep down. Sometimes, it flows continuously, sometimes, it just wouldn't come out. Sometimes, I feel stupid for harping on it though I know I'll still be hurt in the end.

Today hasn't been a good day. Tomorrow will be better, I promise.

P.S. Think with the brain, not as much with the heart uh. I really hope that things will be fine.

grad ceremony.

It was boring at the start, with all the speeches and everything, though Mrs Goh's speech was truly inspiring. The bear is cute, better than expected. Took many many photos, smile till jaw aches. That's all. Graduation ceremony isn't that interesting after all.

Teenage Dream & Just the way you are - Acapella Cover

He's really good :D

Credits to xinying for showing me this video.

short and sweet.

My week had been okayyy. Shopping trips are nice. Spending money lead to satisfaction and heartaches. Took height and weight. I grew fatter but not much taller. ): Science practical was easier than expected. Valerie's birthday yesterday. Not successful in surprising her at her house. Got discovered at the doorstep. Watched step up 3 today. The dance moves are fantastic. Played board games at nebo cause nothing else to do. Went jogging/walking just now. Realised that my fitness level drop. I not happy. I got to do something about my weight. Seriously.

P.S. short sentences are nice, at times.

Irony.

I'll be pretty free these few days since all the major papers are over. When I was busy studying, I really hope that I'll have some free time on my hand and just slack. Now, when I actually have some time on my hands, I find it weird not studying. I suddenly feel so lost, as if I've got nothing I can do at all. I feel empty, not that I want to go back to studying but it just doesn't feel right. Ironic uh.

P.S. can someone tell me why.

I want to SCREAMMMMM!

Prelims are going to be over soon, all the major papers are over. I felt so relieve after geog paper today, finally able to take a break after a hectic week. There is chinese paper tomorrow, I not happy ): I shall go study later.

Gosh, I feel fat, okay I AM fat. Regretted eating so much chips today, after I came down from oral, I just started eating and didn't realised that I was eating a lot. Must be because of the stress from oral. Waiting for my turn for oral was boring, couldn't stand the waiting. I didn't know what to say for conversation at first and I was seriously panicking, luckily I managed to crap. Hope that it'll be fine, I'm a little worried. At least its over, phew.

P.S. I have to study, I will and I must.

STM.

gosh, its so irritating to lose things at home.

I'm perspiring like shit now cause I was looking high and low for my phone's usb cable.

I've lost it AGAIN.

I swear that it's at home but i just couldn't find it ):

I couldn't remember where I left my comb this morning as well, just a moment after I just combed my hair.

Luckily I found my comb afterwards, was so pissed off, not that I'm not now.

I can just walk around with the tv remote, leave it somewhere in the house and cannot remember where I left it afterwards.

I think I've got short term memory, roar.

I really want the usb cable to just appear right now.

说了再见 - 周杰伦

BY2 - 愛上你

lethargy

It has been a long long time since I last blogged, was busy with studying ma x:

I'm so glad that there is a 4-day holiday for us to study and take a break at the same time. It's going to end soon, half gone already ):

I went to watch inception the second time on friday with francine, valerie, isabel, qiaoyi, ruixian and jiayi. It was AWESOME when I watched it the first time but the second time isn't really that great. I realised that no matter how good the movie is, don't ever watch it a second time :/ Anyway, I highly recommend people to catch it. The plot is so amazing, you will never expect what is going to happen next. Going out with the peeps is really fun, we didn't go out ever since kaleidoscope.

I went to watch the last airbender 3D with my family after watching inception. The movie was a little boring, maybe because I watched the cartoon before or that inception is much better in terms of depth. I guess that movie is more suitable for my brothers ._.

I went to eat buffet at marina square for dinner yesterday! Fantastic food :) The cake was awesome but it got a little disgusting at the end cause I was too full and felt like puking. I love the oysters with chilli. I'm feeling a little guilty for not studying much yesterday.

I went to study with valerie, francine and ruixian at rivervale plaza today. My 2 irritating brothers came along, I didn't want them to come along at first but they kept on insisting so I didn't had a choice. Lucky for them, I did study, or else they are really going to get it from me. I shall spend tomorrow studying, hope that I'll be able to concentrate even though I know that it's pretty unlikely for me. Looking at the fact that ALL tv channels are available now and my brothers aren't exactly VERY quiet :/

Gosh, I need to study! How?! Prelims is coming in a few weeks time and O levels is coming in a few months time. I'm worried, it feels like no matter how much I do, it is always not enough and no matter how much I want to study, I just can't get myself to concentrate.

P.S. I'm having a backache now.

Kaleidoscope!

205'08 barbeque!

goodbye.

-by grumpyoldgranny

i'm going to genting tmrw! don't miss me :D

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will."

-One Tree Hill

updates.

WARNING: long and draggy post.

It's the third week of the holidays, structured remedials are over, school is going to reopen in a week's time, I'm going to be busy next week, and yet I haven't really touch on my work yet. I know that I'm supposed to make full use of this time to study but I'm spending most of my time playing and sleeping. I seriously thinks that I'm sleeping too much cause I had a hard time getting to sleep and waking up these few days.

Spent most of my first week of the holidays going for remedials in the morning and watching drama in the afternoon and night. Had an ODAC outing at the bowling centre on the thursday and we celebrated jonathan ong's birthday. Watched prince of persia the day after and the movie is really exciting! The effects are very good and the movie is filled with twists and turns. I went swimming with my family after the movie.

My second week of holidays is almost the same, remedials in the morning, a date with the tv in the afternoon till night. I went shopping on wednesday at bugis and orchard, bought 2 tops and a sunglasses :) My grandparents and my 3-year old cousin came over to Singapore on wed and I went to fetched them at changi airport after shopping. Friday was really exciting! I went cable-skiiing@ecp. It is very thrilling and fun, difficult to handle at first but it gets easier and easier gradually. It was very tiring though, and it gave me muscle aches that lasted a few days.

I went shopping AGAIN this tuesday at orchard and haji lane, didn't buy anything even though I tried on many pieces and they all look fine and I went swimming after shopping. Wednesday was supposed to be a study trip, but I only joined them for a while and went orchard with qiaoyi. I bought a dress this time though, I'll most probably wear it for kaleidoscope. Went to the cinemas with my family yesterday, toy story 3 is really hilarious! I just came back from ecp, went there with my family, skated and had picnic there. I guess I'll start on my work tmrw!

P.S. It's the ups and downs that make it interesting yet frustrating, isn't it?

letting go.

photos

i don't know how to express myself. no matter how much i want to share, everything is just stuck in that small little box that i can't seem to break open no matter how hard i try. there are so many things bottling up inside. gosh, its killing me.

ODAC bbq.

Yesterday was really fun. It has been a long long time since I last had so much fun. We went to macs for lunch after school, omg fattening! Walked to yingting's house after that and played pool. Pool is seriously very addictive and I have no idea why. They went to play badminton after that while I stayed at the bbq pit playing with shirley's itouch and waiting for the rest to come. Weepin and chao wang bought 7 1.5 litres bottles of drinks and we finished everything. Yingting's condo bbq pit is awesome! (Y) So much better than east coast's. We started barbecuing after everybody arrived. Mannan and weepin started the fire and mannan is really a great cook. We barbecued chicken wings, stingrays, satays, hot dogs, crab meats, garlic breads, otahs and marshmallows. There are also fried rice even though we didn't cook it ourselves. The food was yummy, especially the satays. We started playing games after eating, cleaned up, took photos and went home. I reached home at 10 plus and I was super tired :/I need to exercise already.

over and done with.

Mid-years are officially over! :)

It was kind of "over" yesterday cause i didn't study for the 1hr MCQ paper today.

I'm looking forward to getting back the papers even though I know that I won't be getting flying colours :/

Watched the back-up plan at amk hub just now.

It is veryvery funny, I just kept on laughing.

The next few days will be fun, I hope, since it'll just be playing and no studying.

yay, no school tmrw, but there are lessons on friday I think, being sec4 sucks.

P.S. i'm still waiting.

it just have to be that way.

It has been a frantic week D:

The papers are fine except for the geog one.

I have a tiny weeny feeling that tells me I'll flunk it because I ate pizza hut, loitered around compass point, finished reading a freaking book on the day before.

Oh well, I still got the paper 2.

Yesterday was great cause I finally had the macs breakfast which I have been craving for since last saturday :)

I studied a bit of physics, slacked in school and I finished reading another book!

I know that I'm supposed to study now but I shall do that later.

P.S. you never once looked at me.

A-Lin-以前，以後

sometimes, we just cannot hold on to something too tightly.

Today is the first day of MYE only. Yet I'm already freaking out because the papers are difficult. I'm the one or is it the paper. I hope it's the latter :/ There are still many things to study, OMG. I guess I'll spend my long weekend on studying only, although I might take short breaks and visit the computer for a moment d: Jiayou for people that are studying really hard!

Since it is almost impossible, I guess it doesn't matter to me anymore. I'll just let go, even though I don't think I'll be able to.

P.S. it is you that I cannot ______. it is you that _______ a lot to me. why can't you ___ it.

miracles huh.

I had oral today, it went quite smoothly but i guess I won't be scoring well for it. Stayed back in school after oral and studied 2 chapters of chemistry. I didn't study for the rest of the day cause i am feeling very tired already, doubt that i'll have to energy to continue anyway. Andandand, i ate a lot today D: especially after i reached home. I literally feasted X:

It has been a long time since i last blogged. I was busy studying for the past few days/weeks. The amount of things that I have to study is seriously scaring me but I don't have a choice as these are what is tested for mid-years, for prelims and for O levels eventually D: i can feel the pressure already, i guess i'll most probably suffer from a mental breakdown in october, hahas. Wish me luck.

P.S. i'm hoping for miracles that won't happen. i guess i'm just being overly-optimistic :/

:)

406!

LAST odac training yesterday. We ended up slacking in odac room throughout cause we were all lazy to do diary writing for NYAA. Took group photos after odac and played captain's ball at parade square but we didn't play much all thanks to the lightning alert. And I was hit by the ball, it flew right into my face! Ate roti prata for dinner and home-d.

and it was jessica's birthday yesterday.

ate cake and watermelon!

I think the watermelon was VERY nice.

P.S. we'll drift further and further apart.

homecoming!

it's my last homecoming day, omg.

and i'm dreading school more and more, omg ttm.

and i don't want to go to school tmrw! D:

P.S. I’ve come to realise that knowing something won’t happen won’t make you want it any less.

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

let's work hard.

studied in school with francine, ruixian, jessica, valerie, isabel and jy! <3

it was great, really great.

if i had went home after school today, i would have wasted my time watching tv.

luckily, i stayed back to study.

studied for 2 hours and i studied quite a lot.

ss test tmrw, geog test on wed, hist test on thurs D:

a lot to study, all the humanities' tests on 1 week.

my ears are itching now, must be the prawns x:

P.S. impossible will never be possible.

sports day!