sometimes, we just cannot hold on to something too tightly.

Today is the first day of MYE only. Yet I'm already freaking out because the papers are difficult. I'm the one or is it the paper. I hope it's the latter :/ There are still many things to study, OMG. I guess I'll spend my long weekend on studying only, although I might take short breaks and visit the computer for a moment d: Jiayou for people that are studying really hard!

Since it is almost impossible, I guess it doesn't matter to me anymore. I'll just let go, even though I don't think I'll be able to.

P.S. it is you that I cannot ______. it is you that _______ a lot to me. why can't you ___ it.

miracles huh.

I had oral today, it went quite smoothly but i guess I won't be scoring well for it. Stayed back in school after oral and studied 2 chapters of chemistry. I didn't study for the rest of the day cause i am feeling very tired already, doubt that i'll have to energy to continue anyway. Andandand, i ate a lot today D: especially after i reached home. I literally feasted X:

It has been a long time since i last blogged. I was busy studying for the past few days/weeks. The amount of things that I have to study is seriously scaring me but I don't have a choice as these are what is tested for mid-years, for prelims and for O levels eventually D: i can feel the pressure already, i guess i'll most probably suffer from a mental breakdown in october, hahas. Wish me luck.

P.S. i'm hoping for miracles that won't happen. i guess i'm just being overly-optimistic :/

:)

406!

LAST odac training yesterday. We ended up slacking in odac room throughout cause we were all lazy to do diary writing for NYAA. Took group photos after odac and played captain's ball at parade square but we didn't play much all thanks to the lightning alert. And I was hit by the ball, it flew right into my face! Ate roti prata for dinner and home-d.

and it was jessica's birthday yesterday.

ate cake and watermelon!

I think the watermelon was VERY nice.

P.S. we'll drift further and further apart.

homecoming!

it's my last homecoming day, omg.

and i'm dreading school more and more, omg ttm.

and i don't want to go to school tmrw! D:

P.S. I’ve come to realise that knowing something won’t happen won’t make you want it any less.

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here