layers of lies.

germany.

went school today for ODAC meeting.

lunch after that.

went compass point's library.

saw jiayi, mannan and jynn lyi there.

cut my hair, now very short.

a bit rash in making the decision of cutting it real short.

but i didn't regret.

recently quite busy with trans-island preparation cause its next week.

P.S. i'm trying my best. i'm exhausted.

the end of the road, the change of direction.

the evolution game.


yay!


306'09.

last day of school, last day of sec3 even though i know got bridging D:
sad that the whole class can't get promote together.
306'09 will never be the same as 406'10.
i'll miss 306, a lot.
it'll be a brand new year.
a brand new start.
getting closer to o'levels.
can't imagine how it'll be when we graduate next year.

P.S. i still don't see why.
P.P.S. having cramps and it hurts like shit.

falling into a bottomless pit.

germany.

school as usual today.

didn't had much lesson as usual.

went hougang point after school to buy trans-island's food.

came back to school,

started cooking chicken rice to try if it can really work.

just in case we are eating uncook rice at the expedition.

funny incident with the gas canister. scary.

and then went hougang mall to buy ziplock bags and home-d.

mayb i'm going overboard

i'm falling too deep.

gonna pull myself back.

but idk how to.

i guess i'm the one spoiling EVERYTHING.

P.S. save meee.

current affairs.

outside the ntuc.


look like family photo.


don't misunderstand. it's the leftovers of everybody. :/

4 BIG cups of sugar-cane

took this photo at the changing room of this fashion.

yesterday.

subway at amk hub.

walk walk, stone stone, slack slack.

survive till 6 plus plus.

meet up with francine.

and chomp chomp!

was damn full and cannot finish the food.
got a lot of funny moments.

and then home sweet home.

today.

released at 1215 =]

slacked around here and there.

ODAC.

today is relaxing.

played captains ball after that.

and then home sweet home.

P.S. very tired luh, so never include the details.

P.P.S. goodbyes.

it's going round and round.

blue blue~

cousins~

the 44th post.

had odac meeting after school.

went to eat pizza hut.

walk walk around pizza hut and then went back home.

i know that i'm ________ but i don't think that i deserve to be treated that way.

words can hurt a lot.

especially when it means something to the receiver.

i don't want to be treated that way.

i don't want to be the ________ one.

i don't want to be taken for granted.

i had enough.

i really do.

and to you, i'm sorry that i've wasted your time.

P.S. memories stay in your brain forever. its like data that cannot be deleted.

cam-whore~

open house


smile!

look at the camera*

205, wootszx.

candid shot leh.

so lady-like.

louis koo, yay.

took this using self-timer, with the camera on the dustbin.

we're busy people.

movie tickets!

basketball.

drive~

my fav staircase shot

qiaoyi carried me up there cause i couldn't get up D:

hardi with the plate on his head

group photo!

the early birds.

nice effect.

the earlier birds.

Colbie Caillat - "Falling For You"

heard this song at e-hub yesterday.
no special meaning in posting this song.
hahas.

205'08 chalet

warning: this post is a little bit too draggy, so don't bother reading if you are impatient.

it's great.
went 205'08 chalet yesterday.
met valerie and isabel at my house's bus stop.
went downtown east and met the rest.
check in to the chalet.
talk, slack and cam-whore in the chalet with the early birds.
went burger king for late lunch.
went e-hub to walk here and there and check the movie timing.
collect bbq stuff.
went back chalet and waited for everyone to arrive while playing games.
started bbq-ing.
got chicken wing, satay, otah, sambal stingray, hotdog, corn and marshmallow!
valerie wasn't feeling well so she left first. D: sad.
cam-whore and ate at the same time.
damn funny.
did many interesting shots and jump shot! =]
shall upload the photos next time after i gathered all the photos.
watched city of ember using the dvd player in the chalet.
went e-hub after that.
arcade! got play ddr, racing car and basketball.
watched my sister's keeper at 1150pm.
midnight movie! yay!
the movie is not bad.
went back chalet.
played uno, and the game lasted quite long cause of the amount of people.
one by one went to bath.
stone and slack after that.
had stomachache that lasted for an hour D:
played ball and did morning exercises after tha, its hilarious (especially francine).
ate breakfast at subway,
and here i am, home sweet home.
have to go school later.
sad. didn't sleep at all last night.
confirm will doze off later.
there's open house tomorrow.

P.S. isabel bit me during the movie. roar.
P.P.S. i have to eat chicken essence later cause my grandma scared i no energy to go to school after not sleep last night.
P.P.P.S. qiaoyi brushed her teeth with her finger cause she forgot to bring her toothbrush.
P.P.P.P.S. i'm surprised that huisi and chinyue were awake at 4am last night.
P.P.P.P.P.S. cam-whore rocks.

it's now.

off to 205 chalet.
hope that it'll successful.
byes~

P.S. time heals, but it'll leave a scar.

i'll pray hard.

accidents do happen.

we can't avoid it, we can only prevent it.

hurt is inflicted.

just hope that she'll be fine.

really fine.

and hope that this won't happen to me, to everyone i love, anymore.

P.S. memories surfaces even when i don't wanna think about it.

expectations and disappointment.

things/events that i'm looking forward to.
1) tmr's recce at pulau ubin. (seems exciting)
2) 205'08 class chalet. (it'll be fun)
3) getting back results. (results won't be good but i wan know where do i stand)
4) sec 1's trans-island expedition. (of course i'm looking forward to it after putting effort into it)
5) my birthday. (hinthint*)
6) 2 weeks family vacation. (shopping!)
7) christmas. (time for presents!)

things/events that i'm not looking forward to.
1) the disappointment when i see my results. (just pray that i'll score well)
2) bridging D= (i think will have mastery as well)
3) aimless life during the holidays (stoning and slacking)
4) holiday homework (sure got a lot)
5) school reopening (which means i'm sec 4 and there ain't time for playing)

P.S. i'm happy that the things that i'm looking forward to are more than those i don't.

the ask and the answer.

yesterday's photo

went compass point today.
bought school shoes,
converse socks,
a blue and a purple shirt.=]
borrowed 3 very thick books.
wonder how am i going to finish reading it.
didn't managed to buy my comb D:
cause can't find.

sorry for not going jessica's house today.
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry.

P.S. i guess i'm making a big fuss out of nothing.

tell me when i can make it.

friday's photos.

went vivo for odac meeting/outing today.
ate at subway (eat fresh).
had meeting.
played with water, splash*
went walking here and there abit.
took a cab to east coast.
rollerblade for 2 hours.
damn funny, ppl falling here and there. (no offence uh)
and went home =]
can tell that i'm in a good mood now right?
hahas, of course it'll be good after a great day.

went peninsula yesterday.
bought a new nike sport shoe and a PURPLE basketball.
and and and a skipping rope that have a counter (is it called a counter? that thingy that count how many times you jumped)
and ate sushi!
and home sweet home.

P.S. tell you what, i'm jealous. don't ask why, cause idk as well

winnie the poohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

woke up at 9am this morning.
went jogging.

had breakfast.

watch tv, as usual.

bath, read the newspaper.

and here i am now, blogging.

haven't eat lunch yet.

no appetite.

P.S. life goes round and round. the earth turns/spins, it'll be your turn soon.

the credit, the blame.

yay, exams are officially OVER.
chinese prelim today.
went for odac meeting,
lunch and then isabel house.
watch shows, play ball.
go macs, eat, talk, laugh?
then home sweeeetttttt home.

you always ___ for my _______ whenever she ___ you, you will _____ her with what i ___. and when ______ go _____, you ____ the _____ onto me and gets the ______ when its ____. sometimes i agree with what ____says, you can't ______ stuff ____. i'm piss off even though i know its for the ____ of ____ and i shouldn't be feeling this way. but you are going overboard. you get the ______ while i get the _____, smart huh.

P.S. it swings up an down but it doesn't go left and right

painkillers.

.
released at 9am today.
went to find mr rodrigues.
went macs for breakfast.
walk walk here, walk walk there.
went back school.
talk till 3, and home. =]

1 more day to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. i hope that there are painkillers that stop heartaches.
its not that i don't want to tell you guys how i feel and what i think, its just that the consequences are just too heavy for me to bear. it's not easy to keep things to myself, but i don't have a choice. i hope that everything will be fine after i wake up, but i know it's impossible. it's impossible to forget, it's impossible that it won't happen again, it's impossible to solve the problem. just hope that time heals everything, although i know it's impossible as well.

coincidence.

who am I living for?

myself or others?

what do I want my life to be?

fun or meaningful?

what do I want to achieve in my life?

career or family?

what do I really get at the end of my life?

experiences or memories?

and what are experiences and memories for?

idk.

.

P.S. 随心所欲

a car's passing headlight pierces

i know my ________ don't ______ anymore.
as i'm not ______ what i ____ to be.
but its just hard to ____ the ____ that, i'm not _________.
no matter how ________ i may be,
____ inside me, i know i'm ______.
idk why __________ changes ________,
the _______ between _______, the _______ towards people.
______ ________ matter a lot to me,
so much so that i ____ the ____ me, so that i will ___ __.

idk why, i feel that i'm going overboard.
but idk how to salvage the situation.
got that "i'm at the wrong" feeling.

the invisible scar

i don't have to go to school tomorrow.
yay, can go out =]
i need a break from studying and from everything.

P.S. i don't think so, i know that it is so. my presence seems less important than yours, or maybe it is.

right down there.

i have to ____ a ________ because of ___.
i don't wan ______ to ___ that ___ cannot ___ the ____ then ___ the ____ ______.
and i don't wanna be that ____ ______.
cause i'll be the ________ one.
it happened once,
it hurts so much.
so much so that you can't even see it bleed.

i know it doesn't make sense to you,
no worries, it is suppose to be that way.

P.S. qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

The sun shines.

lonely huh.
5 more days to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. memories hurts i don't even know if I've got over you yet.

BY2- 我知道

downfall.

on the way up mount kinabalu.

my mood very bad now.

PMS-ing i guess.

totally no mood do anything D:

the fact that i never study anything over the weekends make me feel worse.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

i realised when girls tell guys about their troubles, guys will think of the solution to it and try to help them solve the problem when girls only need a listening ear and then they will feel better.

6 more days to go.

wootsxz :/

P.S. I tried to scream, but terror takes the sound before I make it.

weekends sucks to core.

sabah, via ferrata. (jesslyn, jonathan ong, me, ruihao, mrs goh, the instructor)

racial harmony day.

ODAC (northern island kayaking expedition)

on the way to _________. can't rmb luh.

I don't like weekends cause have to stay at home staring at the furnitures. The only nice part is the "sleep till you wake up naturally" part unless I'm going out. .__. Especially this period, have to stay at home study, totally no entertainment. This exam period passes very slowly, cause everyone go home straight after school, and staying at home makes the day passes very slowly. Who will want to stay at home and stare at the same few set of furni, the same few walls, and the same few people. Not saying that my family members are bad, its just that I get bored easily. D:

7 more days to go.

wootsxz :/

P.S. irritation or entertainment. because of you, i can't get close.

hidden deep down.

shall not talk about exam papers today.
had enough of it for the past few days.
its friday and i'm going to enjoy it. hope so but i doubt so
should i go out during the weekends?
i wan to, but don't where to go.
don't know who to ask.
don't know what to do.
and i'm lazy d:
you are nice yet you causes the most harm, contradicting huh. sometimes the closest person to you can hurts you the most. i know the pain, its unbearable. i don't want to hide my feelings anymore, but i have to.
8 more days to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. selfish or hurt.

Live like we're dying.

Close to my heart.

I almost died from history and a-maths today. The killer papers make me feel like sleeping. I'm already dying after history, still have to endure another 2 and a half hours of numbers and alphabets. I went straight home after buying popiah and chocolate. Tomorrow is friday, I don't want to go tuition. I want to go out. Roar. D:
am i the one holding on.
am i the stubborn one.
he seems to put it down already.
yet it's still close to my heart.
life will still go on but in a different way.
I'm here for you, but are there anyone there for me? :/
9 more days to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. sin 一样 cos不一样 tan一样不一样 (internal joke, hahas)

'Close all the windows. Tell me — what do you see?'

social studies paper today, it was pretty okay.
went for tuition after that.
history and A-maths tmr leh, how? D:
idk what to say anymore.
idk what to do anymore.
i don't even know if my presence matter anymore.
a littleeeee obvious huh.
10 more days to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. don't ever look back unless there is something to take.

we'll shut it down.

cool huh, i think so too. can't believe i'm inside there. the entire sec 3 ODAC is inside there.

chinese paper was hard.
making me fall asleep.
i felt like just putting the pen down and sleep.
and standing up to stretch.
but obviously i can't D:
the entire hall will stare at me.
and tution was entertaining, very.

11 more days to go.
wootsxz :/

P.S. that feeling gushes back again